Anything You Want To See From Me?

Simply getting that horrid mess of an emotional wreck out of the way. So how is everyone? Everyone good? I sure hope so. My rabbit Domino has recently entered Prince status in my household, but other than that all is normal. Well, except for a few school realted things, main problem being that I have to cook for my class tomorrow.

I have never cooked anything by myself, so I am sure to have help from my Dad, but I am beyond nervous. Italian-styled spaghetti, if cooked right, can bring people together. My family is proof of that. I want to be able to cook something so emotionally perfect to me. This is the first step and I am freaked out about it. Anyone who knows me really well knows I have issues with confidence and independance. My parents won't let me go anywhere without supervision, so I have come to need it. I only screw up less than 1% of the time I do things, but when things go wrong for me then all hell comes twoards me and scares me into not wanting failure to come back to my door again. Becuase of this, I do not attempt anything I know will fail. Art has helped these problems immensely, but not fully. I still fear upsetting anyone over any little thing and doing things by myself. Which is funny considering at school I always ask to work alone as oppose to conforming to a starnger's way of completeing an assignment. It just feels better to be alone, but no one lets me be sometimes. Oh well. I am sure it'll all work out since Dad will be there, so no worries I suppose.

I do want to say that I am dangerously low on points for my growing needs, those needs being a premium membership, commisions from friends, and groups stuff. I would like to say I have commissions open, but every time I do no one answers. Plus, I really should focus on school. Yet, here I am. I think that if you are kind enough to ask, we can work something out. I will most likely put a more proper journal out in teh future, but just putting an idea out there never hurt anyone right?

I also need to get out of my art slump. I am not fully satisfied with the quality of my recent art (with few exceptions) and that is not good. I want to be able to be proud every once in a while. To achieve this feeling, I am going to try and draw more often. I even checked out a TON of library books from my local library on tips for these kinda things. I am also getting into writing again, which I have always loved but was never that good at. If anyone wants to see anything in particular from me, be it a story, a poem, or a drawing, feel free to ask.

Wish me luck guys, I am on a training spree with my skill level.

With good wishes and tidings to all,
Azailia Auburn